frustrations

i am very very frustrated right now.
things are not going well.
everything seems to meet their probs.

yet baby feels that i am just flaring temper at him.
i mean.. how to stay calm when everything just dun go your way? how to stay calm, when u tot everything is settled and yet theres changes again?
how to stay calm, when the big day is near, and everything is not ready yet?
haiz.
i am really very very pissed. REALLY.

i dunno what to do.
i have NEVER cried so many times a day.
im just so tired of trying to make sure everything goes on smoothly.
im so tired of accomodating everyone.
im so tired of EVERYTHING.

my goodness.
i am really helpless right now.

VERY HELPLESS.

i was so looking fwd to the day i lawfully call my baby my husband.
so looking fwd to share our joy with everyone.
but right now, HAIZ. i dun have any more verbs to describe my feelings.
all i wan to do now is to cry. haiz.