3rd month

ethan is 3months old! =D
so happy that he is growing so fast and well.
every day, seeing him grow, is tremendous joy to me.

im so glad that i did this. so glad that, he came into my life.

sometimes, i do look back and wonder how would things be if it did not happen this way.
would me and precious still be tgt?
or would sth else be happening?
how would life be like? i wonder.

seriously, i have never regretted that i chose this path.
i could just run away. i could just not go ahead with this. but, its just not me.
in fact, im glad that precious stood by me and not freaked out. im glad that he gave me so much support.
im glad that we went ahead. and of cos, so much support from both our families.

when daddy told me " i feel you are happier with alvin. and he can take care of you". the joy that i had, was indescribable.
its not that i wasnt happy when i was with william, just that we had so much probs that we didnt make an effort to solve it at all.
oh well, i also have a part to be blamed for the failed rs.
every rs, it requires both party to make an effort to make it work. so when it failed, its only becos both party didnt make enough effort. becos one party decided to stop making effort.
theres no right or wrong in a rs afterall.

oh well. i have gone way past that stage.
right now, im in a stage where i cant say i wanna stop trying.
i cant give up when im tired.
i can only keep going on.
and the motivation that keeps me going, alvin and ethan =)

emotional. but im happy.
seriously.
=)

i love my family.

61th post

i cant believe i started this blog for like almost a year now and i only have 61 post (including this). =P

i dont have much things to blog abt actually.
other than ranting about how pissed i was with the maid.

i dun understand.
YOU are just an employee of mine.
WHO ARE YOU to come and KB me say cannot bring ethan out.
and always carry ethan away from me?

come on. he is my son. i hired u to take care of him while im at work, BUT NOT ASK YOU TO TAKE HIM AWAY FROM ME!

tmd.
fucking pissed with her.
everyday without fail, she will try to carry my son away from me.
say im obsessed. but i really cant stand it.

she even slapped precious' hands away when he tries to carry ethan when he's crying.
WTF.
if i had seen, I SERIOUSLY WOULD HAVE SCREAMED AT HER.

my patience is running out for her.

i asked her to clean my room, and tell her that she should clean my room EVERYDAY,like what she did for the other rooms and living rm. n i asked why didnt she clean it ytd, when im at home the whole time?
and her reply? "oh. mdm u nv ask me to clean. so i nv clean."
WTF?! nobody tells her to clean my parents-in-laws room but she ll auto go clean everyday after my FIL comes back and opens the room door what.
den i ask her "you dunno how to ask ah? i m at home what"
she say "oh i tot you flu cannot sweep".
WTH~!

she is always questioning our instructions. not as if she dunno how to do. its QNS us why do we want to do it this way.
wtf.
things that she need to ask, she dun ask. den always qns us. dammit.

NEVER GO TO HOMEKEEPER FOR MAID!

their service sucks, and their maids are so sucky! this is the 2nd one alrdy. i would not go back to them again. seriously. dammit!

yay!

yay! all coming in liao!

finally got hold of my burberry bag and gucci sandals!!! so happy!!! =D

and my polaroid films... pooh bear!!! =)

overstretched, but i am happy. the rest of 2011 is no branded year. so let me be happy for now =)

i know hubby is worried that i would starve and not enough. but i really wanna get and at least will be happy even if i cannot buy for the rest of the year.
i will be fine darling =D

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flu is on and off. when im better, den i dare to carry ethan. but when im not, it pains me not being about to be too close to him. so scared that he would catch my flu. WHEN WILL I RECOVER? argh.

blocked ears PLUS PLUS.
sneeze PLUS PLUS.

sians.

hubby's off days are gone just like that. next tym when i start working, 1 wk also dunno can haf time tgt or not.. =S

my days back to work are like SOON.