finally!

finally! 2000 words of assignment is completed!
seriously, i think i crapped thru that. if i pass, thank goodness. if not, blame myself.
wadever is it, relieved is the only word. =D

*

his one phone call, can totally change my mood.
thats how impt he is to me. so important.

i love my darling boy.

*

slack slack slack. gotta start doing bio assignment! *oh no*

im so tired. bye!

emotional

many things have happened within these few days. and i wasnt feeling very gd abt it.

i tot things would be easy. i tot we would work things out.
but somehow, i feel a tug.
i cant put a finger on what is it exactly about. but, i just dun feel gd about it.

perhaps i needed more care and concern more than ever. i dunno.
i feel freaking weak right now.
i really hate the emotional part of me RIGHT NOW.

can i just be selfish and stop giving for once?
i need a lot of love from my loved ones.
i dun want to be a burden. i really want this to work and last. but i'm really feeling damn helpless right now.

my eyes are hurting and i have not finished my assignment that is due at 4pm today. KILL ME PLS. haiz.

missed badly

im only halfway thru my 4days of night shifts. and its torturing. not of the work. but of not being able to meet my boy.

=(

i miss him.
miss hanging out with him, having so much of fun and luffs.
miss nua-ing with him around.
miss looking at him and feel "thank god i met him".
miss him looking at me, and i know that im the only person in his eyes.

ahhh~!

*

and i miss laopo amanda. its been like so long since i last met her lah! the last time was so brief! just a hug and poof! she's gone to take her bus. =(

*

and MAB and NANA!!! they are back from bali! bet they had hell lotsa fun. i miss hanging out with them. =S

*

i decided to just do read ups now. and den chiong assignment on monday night instead. bcos i just cant start typing while at work. NO FLOW! =S

*

haiz.
i want a getaway. but i cant. haiz. freaking sians like shit!

*

I MISS MY DUMB DUMB ALVIN LAM!!! =S

when life's in dumps, he shines =D

oh wells.
assignment STILL NOT COMPLETED. and i wanted to like do sth during my night shift. and WTH! i cant open up my files in thumbdrive. TMD. im so gonna EMAIL it to my acc when i reach hm. =(

anw, went to NLB. cool. i cnnt stay in a lib and mug my assignment for >4hours. cant settled down. IM HYPERACTIVE! hahahaha.
had uberly nice dinner with my boy. OMG. how great can life be? lol!

the constant luffs and fun just cheered me up BIG TIME.

*

monga is pretty nice. esp with the shuai ge in it. wahahahah! long movie. took a drag out of me thou.


*

woke up SUPER DUPER EARLY today (22/4), thou i was already waking up later than my peeps.
but den again, im on NIGHT! so im like all awake the whole night.

lectures. met up with baby boy.
oh god. it pains to see him suffer. how i wish i could just storm into his office and fire all the ass-thinkers. =(
i hoped my crappiness did cheer him up a lil. =D

*

had aixin dinner from dad. he bought my requested char kway teow with no complaints. haha!
and even bought other food like otah and oyster omelette. YUMMILICIOUS!

*

work was great. with fun ppl. with cool environment.
had a news. cool.
totally unexpected. and thats how life amazes us.

i was totally calm.. *pats myself*

*

i hope it would turn out well.
i really do.
especially when this is what i wanna do. what i wanna go thru.

i hope to clear everything and feel better. its getting abit disturbing. =(

bye all. =D


i love my dumb dumb alvin lam =D

drunk with her company!!

21 April.

started the day with a 12.30 pm after a nice long zzz at home.
had to practically drag our tushies out of the house after washing up.

had a chickenlicious rice at the coffeeshop for lunch with bro jerome and baby oinks.

jerome scooted off thereafter, while baby girl and i head over to national library for some studies.
headed to the 7th storey of the library and we set anchor at the study table.
started at 1345 hrs, baby girl began typing furiously on her macbook, stressed and blank.
helped her with a little of her assignment, but my mind soon too went blank.
felt so helpless. offered her my shoulder so she can rest when she needs to close her eyes.

after our torturous ordeal in the library, we finished off with a very very nice dinner at LENA'S.
omg their food is like OOMPH! both of us had ribeye steaks, 'caramel' frittos, mushroom frittos, a lychee beer, caramel frappe, and coke float. ummm..... YUMS! :D
seeing the stressful look lifted from baby girl's face, makes the dinner all so yummy.
she was all SMILES. making all sunflowers turn away in shame. :))

had ALOT of sweet laughters along the way to Ilumna and back to J8.
oh the bliss. 'HEY ALVIN!!' and the spastic small mouth that baby girl kept laughing her ass off.

met up with jerome at J8 after that, and we had koi, with almost-saltless fries at macs.
pissed baby girl to no end. HAH! ms floor-manager.

we took it to the movies to watch a desperately long show, MONGA.
fight, kill, sex, brotherhood, betrayal.
nice show thoughs. hoho!

baby girl biked jerome home after the movies, and i went home.
had a nice good night tele convo with baby oinks, summarising our day, and all the fun!

~the day ended, drunk with her company.~

updates!

okie dokie.
time for some updates.

sat:
supposed to go for a play with liting n darling boy. but i suddenly had this sharp abdo pain.
den it was like all gone after an hour or so. TMD!

but anw, went out for RnR with the rest.
got high~ omg.
damn freaking paisei.
lucky i wasnt totally wasted. if not, HAH! alvin lam is so gonna laugh at me. lol!

*

sun:

went to Jurong swimming complex for chillout with the peeps.
its been AGES since i last went there.

and serve us right, all of us got BURNT.
ahh!

lobsters lobsters everywhere! lol!

had lotsa fun thou. with all the gay moves and color diffusion theory. hahah!

den went back to baby's place, and i SLEPT like almost the rest of the day.

what a relaxing day. I LIKE! hehehe.

*

mon:

had ACLS practical test.
somehow i was just stoning. didnt even read up on the algorithm.

den assigned to resus. ran like mad and pulled the trolley like crazy. which resulted in my arm aches NOW. =(

baby boy had a super duper bad day.
was so helpless. the only thing i could do was to send him pictures =X
pains to know he is suffering =(

i hate his boss. =S childish shit who dun even know how to prioritize. is this hw our tax money are spent? argh!

went for class and OMG. i seriously dun understand a shit.
=(

met up with baby boy to cheer him up.

he ended up cheering me up with koi and brought me to have my craves char kway teow instead. love him so much =D

*

time to go. update again!

loves

monday is the farts...

nothing went well today.

i wonder when is the next time i see my baby moo.
if its the weekend, i can totally see my weekdays go down down down down, DOWN.

Monday.is.the.FARTS.

what a day!

woke up at 7am when im supposed to start work at 7. i blame the weather for being too gd to sleep in. hahaha!
i didnt even hear my alarm.
went to work. TEST.
super stressed.
39/50.
passing 40.
but thank goodness gt 1 qns i got it correct but got typo.
ACLS coordinator say let me pass. WAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAH!
shuang.
lucky day! =D

spoken to my dearie. she said its jus a passing phase. i strongly believe its cos i didnt balance all out well.
i will do my best to balance everything. IM SORRY! =D

traced my CT report.
gotta consult senior first. den decide.
i hope its nth. =S

*

got a play to go to later.
and swimming tmr. I HOPE I CAN GO! =D

Woah

Woah. What a day!

Ytd work was gd.
Den had a talk wif darling.
Realised hw insensitive I was. :( I shud really change.

Met baby boy n laopo for supper. I was in dumps when waiting for em. So kinda gif em a shock by seeing my tearing. :/
sups was gd. I wan hei mee e next tym. Hahaha!

I knew i cudnt let baby hug me. When he did, my tears just refused to listen and kept flowing. I just cudnt stop. e pain was so bad. Bcos I didn't know I was such a bad friend.
Oh geez. Thank goodness baby was there to cushion e pain.

*
went for medical appt today. Need do ct a/p cos of e persistent pain. So ended up not going to work.
E contrAst is horrible shit. I drank till I nearly puke. And I nearly cried.
Den the hot flushes from e iv contrast. Horrible.

Wads worst was I had to nbm n watch baby eat. Haha!
Den he gt so jealous of tht kiddy boy at fish n co.
Jeez... I love my baby boy so much! So much so that no one else would affect anything. He is sooo silly to get jealous over these. Lol!

Nw, I'm gonna eat even thou tummy still feels queasy from e contrast.
Bye all

another hurdle to cross

ytd was the glums.

started the day at work where returns issues became a problem, and the problem just blow out of hand, when the colour gave it all away.

can't stand the boss, can't stand the way that baboon pinpoints my mistakes like it was life threatening and worse, to the whole freaking department.

work was shit, till afternoon came and i did despatching work so not in office, won't see that dongalonkong shit face. hah!

lunch with baby girl turned sour when she found out i hid things from her.
felt so terribly bad about the incident.
but as sweet as she always is, she just threw in the sugar and things went sweet after that.
bought her yami yoghurt and gawd, her face of everlasting beams.. :))
sent her to the lobby of her workplace thereafter, and wished her good day, the moo-ish way! <3

after work it poured like everlasting curtains.
drenched when i hit school, and looked like a total mess then.
school was a bummer, as the lecturer turned pms-like, and started teaching the lesson proper when school's due to end in 20 mins.
everyone was like.. WTF.. epic.

after school was so much better.
had a good YUMS supper of porridge, macaroni and wu xiang with bestie and baby girl.
walked behind my baby moo, and hugged her tightly, but i eneded up noticing her tears, her pain, her helplessness.
whatever she felt then shot through me, yet i had to keep it within me as bestie was present and i couldn't bring it up to talk.
all i could do was stand by her, hold her hand and give her encouragements and supports.

baby moo biked me home after that, and she broke down in my arms.
she cried and cried, tears cascading free flow down onto my shoulders.
my heart totally smashed, as she continued to tear, yet i could only stroke her hair and hug her.
she then explained everything that transpired and how the talk with her friend went.
i could understand the loneliness she was going through, while she keeps pinning the blame on herself.
i encouraged her, and told her some ways friends can still come back with each other.
i would give anything in the world to see her smile again, even if it needs me to see less of her, so she can spend time with her friends whom she care and cherish for deeply.

even if the whole world turns their back on her, i wouldn't.
cos she means the world to me. <3
i just want her to be happy. that's all i ask for. :))

she biked home after that, and seeing her go zoom, i suddenly felt lonely.
but i knew i would be seeing her for lunch today!
so...... its gonna be another nice lunchtime with baby moo!!

the day ended...with another hurdle to cross. ~~

WTH

what the hell?
i think im super PMS yesterday.
dunno why.
got so super emo suddenly.

thank goodness i woke up feeling ok. if not i will die. =(

oh well.
come to think of it. things arent as bad as how i think.
im just too emo to think straight.
shouldnt be so selfish.
bad melissa.
adding oil to fire is NO NO. lol!

*

i hope baby boy is ok.
praying for him.

styms, being too nice ends up with trouble.
he should keep his niceness to me. HAHAHAHAHAH!

not important

when it comes to talking about FINDING lost property, NURSES suddenly became SO IMPORTANT. taking all the blame for the missing item.

since when are nurses important? WHEN THERE IS A MISTAKE OR ISSUE.
when pt is well taken care of? Dr gets the credit. tmd.

*

den i feel totally left out.
i dunno why but i always feel this way.
i dun seem to be of much importance.
dun seem to matter to anyone.

i really cannot take it anymore.
i always tot is just a moment.
but these days it seems too much that i cannot take it anymore.

perhaps i shouldnt expect much.
perhaps i should just keep to myself. haiz.

filled with love

had a nice dinner at marche ytd with baby boy.
he rushed over to work and find me.
feel so happy seeing him walk towards me.
=D

how can a simple dinner be filled with so much laughter? i wonder.
haha!

omg. he just simply makes me feel soo loved.

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE "HOLE-IN-THE-POCKET" DINNER BABY BOY! <3

*
went to collect our long-awaited ring.
omg.
even thou it wasnt any engagement ring or what.. but gosh. i just feel so loved looking at it.
its just telling me, im his. =D

*

work today. so not looking fwd to. need to start studying for ACLS theory.

i have been going for tests without studying. how unhealthy. =S

with marche comes MOO!

started the day with a coffee from office cafe, and a load of back log to clear from the long leave i had. woot!
felt so accomplished today at work, finishing a returns that needs 2 weeks to do in 2 hours!

baby girl's bio paper wasn't too bad, as quoted by herself, but i'm so proud of her. :))
rushed down to vivo after knocking off, and met baby girl at coffee bean, slurping happily away on her double chocs. loved the smile that greeted me, from the very loves.

brought her for a huge MOO marche treat, hoping to bring a smile and reward her for her efforts to do well in her past week. :)) we got more than smiles, when she started howling with laughter at the dining table, with the very first 'reserved by Mr. Aldin @ 7pm'. :D
then the cow that refuses to stop staring at her at one angle, then the butt sniffing, the MOO language. food was good, and we ate till we ended with a whooping Movenpick ice cream! watching her smearing her tongue with the ice cream, she looked oh-so-blissful. gawd.

went to make the payment which cost: a COW'S BODY. XD
she made me look like a moolicious mool.
but seeing her laugh so heartily, i just thought to myself that maybe being a MOOL was not bad after all. :))

rushed back to J8 to collect our rings that looked so OOMPH.
with half of the journey 'TESTHIS' philosophy of hers.
NAWTHY GIRL SHE IS.
but how i love the way she beams at how happy she is. my heart just went.... NUA. :)

baby girl bumming at my place, and i wish she wouldn't leave my side, as the day just seemed like a fairytale that was ending, with me longing for more.

alvin <3 melissa
and i hope she finds some time from udders,to meet me, as it looks like she is UDDER-ING every day. XD

with marche comes MOO! ~~

worth the wait

sitting at vivo coffee bean, drinking pure double chocolate frap.
using lappy.
NUA.
waiting for baby boy to come.
and have our nice marche dinner. =D

had a long day at school.
but all was worth it when the time comes to meet my baby boy.
=)

*

i liked the way he held my hand and my heart skipped a beat.
the way he gazed into my eyes and i know how much he loves me.
the way he hugs me.
the smile on his face.
the serious look that never failed to tickle me.

how can i look at someone and smile in bliss non stop? i wonder. but he makes me do that. =D

*

<3

gonna watch F.R.I.E.N.D.S. now. tata!

Two down

Okie. Ytd was a fiery day. Mayb cos I'm too stressed.
Didn't really study for bio test today.
As well as not prepared for presentation ytd.

Totally lost.:( sucks.
I think my tutor sucks.
Bcos whether we do too detailed, or go straight to the point and think too simply, she wud have sth to say. Tts for being a tutor I guess. Argh!

Den had a not-bad dim sum along lorong 15.

Met baby boy. Oh gosh. He wud just lighten up my day. I wud feel so gd after seeing him.
the luffs that we always haf. The rootbeer-makes-him-dumb thing. Hahaha!

The part where I had to leave was e worst.
Dun like *pouts*

tried to study at home, but I cudnt. Sucks:( my eyes jus refused to stay open.
But thank goodness I did e quiz this morning on e train.

I hope I wudnt fail too badly. Haahaha!

Time for lunch!
Nana n mab gonna skip class. Im so gonna be alone:((

great day!

today was a marvellicious day!

started the day with assignment chionging @ school.
many thanks to those who helped me in the assignment. :)
completed the assignment with a great pat on my back.
woot!

and cheapos are going dancing.
free style, hip hop. let's do this boys! :D

class was a blast, as i pronged on bestie's iPhone and listened to the songs.
omg! the songs are all damn nice larh!
then bestie, me and lut started playing with my lappie's camera, distorting my picture, turning it, then putting it as my desktop background.
lut showed me the picture while i was swallowing my saliva, causing it to enter my trachea, which follows with a great COUGH COUGH COUGH COUGH COUGH. lmao.

gourmet after class with jerrel, bestie and lut.
cheese fries, chestnut drink. YUMS! :)
poked jerrel till his face reddened. HILARIOUS. LOL.

went home for a bath, then met my baby girl below my block.
talked about our day, whined to each other, drank root beer, became a block, and she laughed her arse off at things i mumbled.. like ***** code.
neighbour aileen walked past, and we all had a hearty laugh at the everyone's-ovulating theory.
nothing could explain how i felt, holding her, protecting her.
love the way she smiles, the way she close her eyes and snuggles in my arms, the way she whispered 'i love you' into my ears. :)) ever-bliss. <3

ended the day with my baby girl biking home, and a smile on my face. :) ~

TOTALLY PISSED

ok.
I AM PISSED.
what is wrong with the ppl these days?

early in the morning got snapped at with regards to YOUR PRECIOUS DAUGHTER.
if she is that precious to u, FREAKING HELL GET UR ASS BACK HERE TO SIGN THAT BLARDY FORM LAH! tmd.
i dun owe her a living.
why do i have to take this shit?

*

den saw sth. AGAIN.
when will these exactly stop?

i love my baby boy.really do.
becos he showed me what is love.
he showed me WHAT A GUY CAN DO FOR THE GIRL HE LOVES.

you showed me what a guy can do to the girl he chose to neglect.
so stop criticising me.

i meant what i said then. but it didnt end well.
what happened to us may not happen between me n him.
i dun expect u to give me ur blessings.
but at least, DUN DOUBT WAD I USED TO SAY!

arghhhhhhhh!!!!!!

*

and right now im like so freaking worried about my boy.
yet i cudnt do anything..
haiz.
useless shit.

what an exasperating day! =(

*

had such gd day yesterday. except the kena DIAO by baby's admirer part.

why does it has to end up so FIERY today?

im not even feeling well.
ARGH!

sleep...less...

its 01 05 hrs.

and i can't sleep.

assignment's still stuck at 930 words.

argh!

tummy's hurting like hell.

when you're gone..

watched her leave.

very heart tugging.

but she's home safe. i couldn't ask for more.. :))

we got rings for our first month.

its beautiful.

the day was fulfilled with 3 KOIs, sweet potatoes, and squids..fried..
so much so that my baby girl just dethroned me by saying i flirted with a girl at KOI.
gawd her jealous maniacious moves drives me wild! HAH!
love the way she shows her love for me. <3
had so much fun and hearty laughs when she popped by my place, as we explored her fetish for the *WAVES* :D

the day's getting better, as i restarted my assignment, and now... @2330 hours, i have a great breakthrough!

=)

break time now..
and im feeling total tiredness CAN?!?
loL~

totally should start mugging for bio.
i AM SO DEAD.
lol!

and my presentations are still not uploaded. i wonder why. =(

*

i miss my baby boy. loads.

times when he held my hand tight.
times when he looks into my eyes and i just knew how much he loves me.
times when we binge on our fav food.
times when we drank koi milk tea tgt.
its just times with him.

<3 him

*

i hope things will be better and better.
i just wanna go thru this difficult times.
im just not bucking up enough.
shouldnt slack so much.

need to cut down on outings and use that for my sch work instead.
NO LIFE, yes.
but its for the benefit for life.

gonna nap abit before going back to work.
loves!




*waves waves* at alvin lam. hehehe.

can't sleep!!

orh like a dinky winky in singapore,

i'm so freaking stuck on my assignment.
cos i lost an article which i cited from. WELL DONE.

sister's still not coming home.
parents are drilling holes in their 'good example.'
like i can do wonders.

brother's down, issues with my sister
but all i can do is give my ears, my shoulders, my empathy.

started the day with 1300 hrs.
sweet saturday.
took it to the lan shop with the bitches for a good zombirific killing session.
had to leave at 6 odd, and i dragged my 'hao ren' arse to my grand's.
flubberific dinner, as i pumped my blobbified tummy with a huge... HUGE bowl of laksa.
YUMS.

something's squirming in my git but what gives, i don't know.
hurts like shit and couldn't sleep for nuts with all the rolling-on-bed antics.
woke with anal bleeding, and for once i thought my gender's wrong..

fetched my baby girl home from work after getting KOI milk tea which gets her *wave wave* :D
she told me things that made me reflect my rash decisions and thoughts, and for that i apologise.
held her hand today while driving and the engine seemed to skip a beat. bliss if i would call it. :)
took her to the night market near her place to bobble her all time fav there: sweet potato fritters.
watching her eat and beam, makes the scene oh-so-blissful. bummed around her place for a bit, had a good and heart warming talk.
she's so worn out these period and i pray, that she gets over this smoothly.

0209 hrs. and i still can't sleep. but something's certain, the weather's hot like shit.

what a day

well, it was an eventful night yesterday.
pissed, disappointment, sadness, worried... etc.

i just hope all was well.
it was a stupid fight afterall.
it was really uncalled for.

i love u for who u are. how well u treat me. how much u love me.
not on looks or talent.
have confident in urself darling boy, and have confidence in me. =D

*

i hope he is better now.
talk things out. solve probs.
its impt.
dun keep it to urself.

*

sch today was terror.
surprisingly i woke up in time and reach early enough to buy macs for mab and me.
had breakfast at the stairs outside lecture hall. wth. hahah!

den in class. totally brain shut.

slept thru the last hour of the class. on the "touching video" that we are supposed to tear. *and i dunno why*

ate lunch with mab.
seriously speaking, i tried.
but i cant seem to let go of the burden.

i tried talking to someone abt it.
but i was rejected.

it is very tiring.
VERY.

i had abt 1 hr of rest before work. and im SO LOST in ed.
with a sleepy head.

*

hmm

ok.

sians.
totally didnt expect that to happen.

argh sucks.
ok.

im out.

title

HAH!!

*FART*

BYE

work is so sians

who doesnt agree with that?
it is god damn sians.

AM after OFF day.
den got class again later.
omg. im really beginning to regret starting class.
and SOCIOLOGY IS FREAKING HARD!

bio presentation on mon(need to submit by sat) - not done.
bio test coming tue - HAVEN STUDY YET.
ACLS practical and theory test next friday and sat - HAVEN STUDY YET.
2(tmd kena sabo) presentations next sat - not done.
APO presentation by next sun - not done.
socio assignment 1500words by 27th april - not done. not even a word/research.

KILL ME PLS.
argh.

zzz

hmms.

loads of late nights.
loads of happiness.
den weird things happening.

sang K for consecutive 3days. POWER!

*

totally addicted to koi milk tea. =))
and i liked amk de atmosphere better =D

*

and im sorry for making her worried.

it wasnt meant to be this way.

im really sorry.

*

so many assignments.
too many to count.
sians.
i totally got no mood to get started.
tmd.

*

and damn sians now.
down.
=(

time to slp.

*

bye

Sians.
Why m I always e bad person?
Even if I only wanted you to be happy?
Even when I know u feel relief now?
Even when I know u weren't happy wif me?

I merely feel u dun hafta act like nth infront of me yet feeling like being wif me was e worst choice ever. I felt even worst than being betrayed but do u ever know?

Haiz totally frustrated.
I just wanted things to be normal btwn us.
Perhaps I was naive. Things wasn't that simple or easy afterall. I am always seen as e predator and ppl are e victim.
Be it at work, at home, or in a r/s. Wth.

*

argh. I need to ventilate.
Stop reading my blog if what I say doesn't makes u feel gd. I just want a place to talk about my feelings.
Damn.

This blog is supposed to be happier.

*

ahhhh! And I envy mab!
I want my lv damier azur Eva clutch!!:((

loves

oh well.
life has been tiring but yet fun so far.
wasnt well these days.
stupid URTI.
but im getting better. thats a relief. =D

had fun steamboat session with liting, amanda, tengyao kor, yali, lut, elaine, jerome and of cos, my darling boy.
not forgetting the ice cream session after that, which is a smelly session for darling boy and elaine. hahaha!

=)

styms, i wonder why do some ppl have to dwell in the unhappiness, yet at the same time, act like it is nth at all.
if it was ADVISED against before, and u told urself that "no, this is the choice i wanted to make", den why talk about "should have heeded the advice long time ago" kinda thing?

bitter, yes.

it is over. and life still goes on.
time and tide waits for no man.
why do we have to choose to be unhappy when being happy is an option too?

haiz. lets pray for the best. for everyone.

*

ok im tired.
slept at close to 3 ytd. right now,my eyes are closing.
ended up being in charge buddy rather than med nurse.

im meeting amanda laopo and darling boy later. cant wait. loves!

today is finally here

as much fun as i had the past few days, today is finally here.
and im finally seeing him in 4hours time. =D

feel abit sad cos i cant drive out today.
in fact, i cant drive out everyday lah. damn sians.

drove today to go sweep tomb with family.
i was abit restless. dunno why.
mayb cos not enuf slp as well. lol!

ytd was fun. i never knew les night can be so fun.
as in, the music is damn gd.
and there are really loads of cute girls. hahaha!
we all had fun.
all was down, except me la.
but i dun need alcohol to keep me high =)

it feels gd to see nana having fun. to the extent that when she got abit out of hand, i dunno if i shud stop her. =X
but nonetheless, i hope she is ok now. =D

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bad nose.
bad bad nose.

whats wrong with me? haiz.

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big thanks to william for helping me settle that. thanks =D

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today is like discovery channel when i discovered alot of things that i never sees before.
unpleasant feeling.
but well, im still handling it well.

it is always nice to know how much i meant to him. and that he would always explain himself for fear that i would misunderstands.

and im equally surprised at how much we were linked to the extent that i would know exactly that he is unhappy about stuffs etc.
nice. =)

i dun like to be always guessing and not know the answer.

and i dun like to assume. so, i hope things stays this way =D

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okie. time to get my lazy ass off my bed and go prepare to meet the ppl.
6hours of slp for 48hours. cool.

bye all.

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yearning and pinning for u.