bad bad health

its been bad health. really bad health for me this year.
i never tot i would be admitted twice a year. tmd.

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somehow, alot of things like to happen all tgt. but i believe im strong enough to handle.
i will face it all as it comes.
afterall, without bearing hopes, there wouldnt be much disappointment.
even thou this time rd the expected may not be given to me, but im ready to face it.

somehow, with all these, i hope to just have a more peaceful last year of work den off i go.
more than ever ready to leave this place.

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the hospital stay is so heartwarming. everyday without fail, my darlings took the trouble to come to my ward and cheer me up. sit by my side and pei me. joke ard and make me luffs.
they made the stay more bearable than ever. =)

THANKS ALL who came. =D loves u guys loads.

not forgetting, my baby darling boy who stayed by my side without fail, worrying for me when im so ill... happy for me when im better... the fun and luffs that he brought into my life.. no words can describe my feelings. i thank god for sending him into my life. making me know how much someone can love me.. and how much i can love someone..

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and of cos, to darling veron, wanyi and sushan, their care and concern were of no less. and it meant equally impt to me. didnt want to trouble them to come all the way down to see me.
<3

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wow~

been AGES.
its mid may now. how FAST time flies.

so many things happened lahhh!
gd, bad...
troublesome~! hahahah.

putting ourselves thru all the hard work, hopefully it brings about fruitful returns.

i never considered putting all these efforts is hard work. bcos these are things that i willing, and wanna do for him. tiring, yes. but its all worth it. definitely.

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work has been OK. except for some spoilers. but den again, thats life. we cant expect work to be smooth sailing at all times. i have learnt to take things at an easier pace. hopefully i would be happier this way. styms i realise, expecting to do the best and maintain the highest standard is only from my own perspective. and it is extremely hard if other ppl dun do the same thing.

we are always expected to be understanding to ppl in ED. but who will be understanding to us?

if we have always been treated fairly, things would have been changed. i believed so...

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anw, im so charged nw. rest is like wonder pill. =) feels so much better than yesterday.
i need to go back to ED tmr during my off day again to do some stuffs. sians big time.

alrighty. gtg.
bye all..



*im still waiting*

*blow*

*blow away the dust*

ok. been some time since i last blogged.
dun haf time.
dun haf access to comp at ease.

baby has been REAL sick last week.
spent my day offs all looking after him. but its all worth it. =)
im glad he has recovered now, and strong. =D

alot of things has been going on.
alot of planning.
alot of worries.
alot of what-need-to-be-done stuffs.
too much.

im not backing out becos of all these.
im just looking at how things could have become if we rushed into it and im really afraid.
i dun wan things to turn ugly.
i dun wan to lose the happy things that i have now.
and yet i was looking forward to the day.

haiz. what should i do?
im really, lost in between all these..
i really dunno what to do.