haiz

i didnt see this coming.
i admit i have weird feelings. but it is definitely now how he think it is.
i mean, afterall, it was a almost 3years r/s. i admit i put on a strong front right from the start when i ended the r/s. but i also know that memories can never be forgotten.


i have never regretted my decision.
we may not be rich. but we achieved alot more than other ppl did.
we may not be together for long, but we went thru more than other ppl did.
i tot we were strong, but realized we need to work more on it.


haiz. why let someone who has found his own happiness affect our happiness?
i really dun understand.
affairs of heart. really hard to understand.

shocked.

saw sth i shouldnt have seen. or actually, i should have knew it long ago if i had been more attentive.
i dunno how does this happen. this is so weird.

i dunno why do i have this indescribable feeling inside me.
but i guess, it all happened for the better.
its what i hoped to see, when i have made that decision.
i have nth to regret. bcos i know, i have gotten the best in my life.

i remembered, at the time when i made that decision..
i prayed for him to get over and be happy.
i prayed for us to be friends. and not let that affect us.
i prayed for him to find someone whom will let him feel much more worthy than i am.

only the 1st and the 3rd came true.
but it didnt matter anymore.
as long as, he found someone else.

all the things that has been said, be it spiteful or not, or all that has not been said, are all not important anymore.


pls be happy. i know you will.

january

so fast, we are into 2011. in less than a month, chinese new year is approaching.
i couldnt believe how much life has progressed so far.
how much difference are there in my life.
i find satisfaction in taking care of my own kid. jus not enough, to make me stop working i guess. afterall, we need to bring the bacon in to give my son a better life.

looking at ethan makes me realised how much i have missed out, how much i have to do to make sure we have enough.
its hard for me to change overnight, but i am trying, and i will. i will make things work out, and even better for US.

i love my family. =)