APRIL. back to work SOON.

OMG. so fast, its already april. and soon enough, i would be back in action at work this time next week. time really flies... times away from work is always the shortest. as much as i say how i wish i dun have to work, a part of me is actually looking forward to going back to work. this way, i feel my life in more control. i do not feel useless nua-ing around. HAHAHAHAHA! and this time round, its really different because i know my kids are in safe hands. thou i still dun like the maid, but at least MIL is around. =) going back to work this time round is not as scary as that time after having ethan. i guess cos its going back to the same environment. not from edtc to ed. however, its going back to a strange land because alot of precious colleagues have left. the good ones.. including bff.. =S sometimes i wonder when is my turn. then again, i wonder if i would really leave.. hmm.. * oh well.. alot happened during this 3 months while im not blogging. not to mentioned, hubby is in real mess... in terms of health. mainly due to work. got injured here and there. sometimes in really impressed at how he actually can get so much injuries. i mean, i have been in this line for 4 years. always running around in action. but have never encounter anyone as suay as him. not to mention PR issues as well. as much as i always complain about work. im honestly secretly thankful that my management is considerate in terms of family commitments, esp like child's sick etc. * personal feelings wise, recently have been rather moody. a part of it is having to say goodbye to this slacker life (LOL), another part is finding out about how not being really treated as a part of the family. i mean, of cos i know its hard to accept someone into your family immediately. however, i find it really hard to accept that after almost 2years of getting along tgt, im still considered outsider. im still considered as someone that needs to be treated with caution etc because of FACE issue. and its not as if im just a MAID. im half-daughter! haiz. i guess its really hard to change people's perception sometimes. i cant do much, however, still feel upset thou. i dunno how to define this feeling inside me. i just know its not good. haiz.hope i can get over it soon... * anyway, baby girl is growing up steadily, and she is getting cuter and cuter each day. i can just look at her forever. LOL! she is so adorable that i cant resist hugging her everytime i see her. hehehe. ethan is also growing healthily... already able to walk by his own... needs alot of coaching at this age... hopefully we can guide him into growing up as a sensible and responsible kid. =) alrighty, gonna upload some overdue pics on FB before going to sleep. nitey nite, ppl who read my blog.. (none i think. hahahaha).