woah

wow! its june already.
and my birthday is coming! hahahahha!

oh well. thinking back. last year was busy preparing for my big 21st birthday bash.
this year probably gonna be just a romantic bday celebration with darling boy.
no raring birthday bash. haha!

so many things happened since last year.
so many things revealed themselves.
true colors revealed. and im thankful i left.

sometimes, when we try to hard to make things as peaceful as it can be, some ppl just like to stir up trouble.
and den tell u that you r e one giving ppl trouble and ask u to stop.
how childish.

actually, in life, we have been thru many things. going through alot of ups and downs. making decisions tht may not be the best. or even the worst decision in life.
but all these, brings sth into ur life.
telling you what are the things you can accept. what are the things you cant.
what are the things u want. what are the things you dun want.
shouldnt we all be at least appreciative to what has been brought into our life?

i always believe everything in life happen for a purpose. be it a learning point or a lesson to you. so if i had to choose all over again, i would still make the same choice.
we may not be able to do every thing right. but den, try to make the best out of everything.

what happened between us is sth that we should handle it ourselves and should not involve the older generation. to incur their wrath is a no no.
and of cos, i dun wish to see them losing the years of friendship over this kinda childish issue.

i love my family for they are always there for me.
i love them becos they understands me and supports my decisions.
and their forever-ready to sacrifice for me spirit. they are just the best.

and i am thankful that alvin baby came into my life.
i wouldnt be able to imagine now that if my life is still continuing that 3years that was deemed as wasted.
i dun care how other ppl may think. thinking that now is still honeymoon period or what.
but what me and baby shared is sth different.
totally different from my past experience.
and i know, i can trust him with e rest of my life.
for one thing i am sure, he loves me and would never insult me.

styms all we ask for is just simple care and concern.
it should not evolve around buying things and thats concern.
it should not always be " i buy for u that one not enough meh"?
it should not always be i have to be understanding to u and yet u cant even send me a sms,

just bcos ppl do things not to your way doesnt mean that person is a bad person.
do unto others like what you want others to do unto you.
if you didnt treat ppl like shit, ppl wouldnt do it to you.
think about it.

i have enough of getting scolded suddenly for sth ppl said or i said. or sth i do.
i have enough of being picked on as fat and stuffs.
i know i m not good enough.
but i need someone who loves me for who i am.
im also a woman who needs love from my partner.
im also a woman who needs care and concern.
i cant always be waiting..

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I thought that chapter of my life has ended long time ago.
but some ppl just like to dig it out and make a fuss about it.
i want it to end it right where i allowed it to be.
and nth else.

i accept blessings that come true from heart.
fake blessings, pls keep to yourself.

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baby has been great support. and i am really thankful.
time to move on with our life and our future baby boy.
i love you =D

i dun care how sarcastic ppl can be to you. for you know i love u. =)