3rd month

ethan is 3months old! =D
so happy that he is growing so fast and well.
every day, seeing him grow, is tremendous joy to me.

im so glad that i did this. so glad that, he came into my life.

sometimes, i do look back and wonder how would things be if it did not happen this way.
would me and precious still be tgt?
or would sth else be happening?
how would life be like? i wonder.

seriously, i have never regretted that i chose this path.
i could just run away. i could just not go ahead with this. but, its just not me.
in fact, im glad that precious stood by me and not freaked out. im glad that he gave me so much support.
im glad that we went ahead. and of cos, so much support from both our families.

when daddy told me " i feel you are happier with alvin. and he can take care of you". the joy that i had, was indescribable.
its not that i wasnt happy when i was with william, just that we had so much probs that we didnt make an effort to solve it at all.
oh well, i also have a part to be blamed for the failed rs.
every rs, it requires both party to make an effort to make it work. so when it failed, its only becos both party didnt make enough effort. becos one party decided to stop making effort.
theres no right or wrong in a rs afterall.

oh well. i have gone way past that stage.
right now, im in a stage where i cant say i wanna stop trying.
i cant give up when im tired.
i can only keep going on.
and the motivation that keeps me going, alvin and ethan =)

emotional. but im happy.
seriously.
=)

i love my family.