How to let it go?

Laugh at me. I dun care.
I'm weak. And I'm hurt.
I can't let it go. Not just yet.
I know I should. But everything is so painful.

I know very well what should I do and what should I not do.
But knowing and doing is different.

Seriously. I'm hurt to the extent that I can't even trust anything that is said to me anymore.
What you said just made me ponder even more.
Who is the one, whom u protected so well, that you dun even wan to let me know.. Even at times like this.
Or was there no one, but an imaginary figure that you wanted to pin the blame to?

原来，我只是个不被重视的傻瓜。